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French Zoey. Brattle Campus. pseudo archaic. 26 mph. Honey Baked Ham. everything capitalized is past tense. ugly polo t-shirts. poor people’s clothing that never quite fits right. unshaved love. love handles. tell the truth. (no) heroin in the dorm bathroom. the kids study and call their mothers while I find a vein. blue like everything else. bad dope. bent needle. period sex without a shower. food handling in the morning. slime. filthy fingertips. glazing hams for Thanksgiving and Christmas. to be warmed and devoured. pre-filled syringes. laced with coke. Crazy Bones. holographic cards. Walden Street. she'll die soon. so will he. panic attack somewhere in New Jersey. hiding. driving around Cambridge feeling guilty. "you're guilty." remember every detail but don't look. everyone's insecure. everyone stares on the stairs at the stars and the sun. small people living mini lives, active vignettes, I'll pay you back, I promise.
VILE SELF-PORTRAITS© AS AN ALTERNATIVE TO CONFORMITY.
COMING SOON TO THE SCREEN MANIPULATING YOUR THOUGHTS.
Daze - days like these are long ago, the cocaine & crank - I preferred not the rich man’s drug.
I wanted the crank, the meth, the ice. Not in my veins, but up the nose, yet one side only as the other is used for breathing.
Long beyond the love for a man I had married, many years before, the high made it possible to have sex which turned me cold when the high was gone. The withdrawal was lower than the high ever was high.
Breaking away from the husband and the high was a brutal reality which made life difficult and painful to sons who would be angry for what they couldn’t understand.
The years since the breaking of both addictions have been a teaching and learning experience, a necessary lesson to becoming whole again.
I never went to college and also slept in the dorms. Tulane New Orleans